One of the most difficult issues of letting go has been acting. I was grieving my dreams. I love it and I have a passion for it, but realizing I wasn’t going to be making a living from it was heartbreaking. If it comes up I’ll be happy to be on the set. I discuss this in the episode.
Grieving Dreams is when we review our lives and realize a dream we have pursued so long doesn’t benefit us anymore.
I recorded an episode of my other podcast, Chica and the Man with my co-host Alex Greenwood. We talked about career changes and how it affected us. (Listen to that episode here).
How we grieve when we have pursued a job, career, or a business and gave our heart and soul to it only to have to let it go. We know it’s the right thing to do, but yet there’s this sadness of letting go. We think what-if I could have done more? Where did I go wrong? Was I just not good enough? In reality, I feel the lessons and importance of it have run its course. When we feel this way, it is a form of grieving. We need to address it. As Eleanor Haley from Grieving the Loss of Hopes and Dreams states: When we care deeply about something, it can be difficult to know when to let go. Sometimes our hopes are all we have to keep us getting out of bed in the morning. People always like to say things like, It’s never too late to follow your dreams and many times this is true. When there’s a chance to see your dreams through or there is still joy in the journey, by all means, keep going.
I grieved letting go of acting. There was no more joy in the journey. I knew I couldn’t make a living at it, yet I pursued it for many years. I was in disbelief because I had invested so many years and my soul in it. How can I love acting and the career doesn’t love me back? Nowadays, if it comes my way, I’ll be happy to do it. It’s the pursuit of it I have released. It was heartbreaking and liberating at the same time.
Grief is a normal response to loss during or after a disaster or other traumatic event. Grief can happen in response to loss of life, as well as to drastic changes to daily routines and ways of life that usually bring us comfort and a feeling of stability. Common grief reactions include:
- Shock, disbelief, or denial
- Anxiety
- Distress
- Anger
- Periods of sadness
- Loss of sleep and loss of appetite
CDC on grief and Loss (see link below)
Regardless of the scenario, the loss of hopes and dreams can be incredibly hard to accept and cope with. Eleanor Haley.
Deep listening is the practice of turning toward your feelings and emotions.
Most of us have the tendency to run away from anything uncomfortable within us. It’s only natural. But numbing, avoiding, and rejecting our pain only makes what we feel larger and ‘scarier’ than it truly is. When we turn toward our pain with curiosity and gentleness, we often find an immediate sense of relief. Aletheia Luna
What I’ve learned through grief is to accept, be kind, and love myself. Life will have its moments, it’s part of living. Learn to ride the beautiful, never-ending passions and gifts of life.
The poem for this week is Quiet from Inspire Me: Perception
Black and white
Chrome bedroom
Reflects silvery gray moods of
The uncharted mind
Incandescent garden lights
Shine through the blinds
Marking lines on face
Stares at the light
Answers from another realm
Beyond our three dimensions
Silence prey’s existence of
Yearning questions
An essence enters
Smoky figure gazes
Into questioning eyes
Serene presence felt
Changing monochrome
Movie of thoughts and dreams
Reflect on cheeks and lips
Grin extends to essence
Crimson smile, blushing face
Sends joy to ashen figure as
Chromatic shades appear and
Smoky image disperses
Lights fade into darkness
REM creating memories of
Longevity with peaceful
Nightfall sleep
Goodnight
Music by: Ocean Bliss by Gotama
https://gotama-music.bandcamp.co
https://lonerwolf.com/deep-listening/
https://whatsyourgrief.com/loss-of-hopes-and-dreams/ (Eleanor Haley)
https://www.cdc.gov/mentalhealth/stress-coping/grief-loss/index.html
https://www.helpguide.org/articles/grief/coping-with-grief-and-loss.htm
As I had reported last blog it’s been an exciting week. I have now had six total auditions since I signed with DDO Agency two weeks ago. Auditions started last week Friday and here we are on Wednesday. Today I was lucky enough to have two auditions in the same place. The second casting director was kind enough to see me earlier so I wouldn’t have to return to the studio.
It’s been an exciting week since I’ve joined my new commercial agents and I’ve had two auditions and a third one tomorrow. All since Friday. Wow. I haven’t had this many auditions in a row in years. So grateful!.
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Good news this week. I booked the print job I mentioned last blog where I was on hold. Monday 3/14/2022 is the fitting and the actual shoot is 3/18/2022. Fingers crossed everything goes smoothly. I just love booking gigs. I didn’t even have to audition for this one. Yay!
In the meantime, check out my 
The Poetic Resurrection is a weekly podcast that explores perceptions. I’ve been honored with great poets, leaders, and guests. There are also meditations on this podcast.
A couple of years ago, I was thinking of writing children’s books; I came up with this story called Teddy. I named it after a teddy bear that I’ve had for many years. Not that creative with the name.